between a newly re-organized teenager and a ranting and raving mother of one

M "yah so you can just give her my cell number.....ya and she can just call me. maybe we can go get coffee...i can tell her alot of stuff about Nick. cause i was around all of the time for the last two years you know...before he-

N "yah, yah,"

M" yah, you know, i saw Jess the other day and she was all like " Monie, i havent seen you in a while" you know, shes like 5 and shes all thinking wait a minute...i havent seen her in a while.

N "yah..."

M "those kids they say the cutest things, i swear to god. When Nick was still alive Jess used to say "Monie, why couldnt daddy have found you first ? why did he have to marry mommy?" (laughs short and hard)  I was like JESS! im his SISTER! (laughs again) and they were all like "no youre not" I mean they thought i was their mom you know? cause i was always goin' everywhere with them and takin' care of them with Nick"

N " (laughs) thats funny"

M "yah"

N (silence)

M (silence)

N " Well Nate! youre just the cutest little thing... 've been through everything, military school, half way house, colorado, kansas, montanna"

N (sarcastic but friendly smile) "Yep! pretty crazy..."

M " i call you the coffee drinker, my friends at work, they dont even know you but they call you the coffe drinker because i told them how you used to drink coffee when you were so little. My friend Vernell, she goes "Monie, hes too smart for that family , hell be fine. Everything will be fine because hes too smart"....ha ha thats funny...the coffee drinker

N " oh man!"

M"i think im gunna go to kaiser and see if theres some other reason why im loosing all this weight. i mean NATE! im not- annerixic!- well i know im not because i love to eat and i drink a lot of dr pepper! god im the same size i was in high school (puts finger over scarred mouth and looks off into space) yah, im the SAME size i was in high scool. Its because i dont have a butt. i swear try finding pants when you dont have a butt. its terrible. of course youre goin "oh god" because youre a guy, you dont care. uh huh hu (laughs) right? hes goin "ok aunt monie im a GUY, HUH-low!" oh nate, youre so cute..."

N " yah, i dont really care about clothes"

M "yah..."

N " well... i better head out, my mom wants to do a few things with the car"

M " what car are they going to have you drive up there in montanna??"

N ( smiles slyly)

M "bmw?"

N "yah" (laughs silently)

M (laughs) " oh nate...theyve got you spoiled up there in the mountains...well i guess well do the dr pepper thing some other time, so i dont have to drive up to target...and m and ms. well have a regular old dr pepper party..."

N " sounds good!"